This adorable stuff, belongs t Ms Juny! :D

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But anyway, if you watched 4bia, you should watch this, it's pretty cool.

Just remember t bring enough "cloth" t cover yourself.

And yeah, hated the goriness, total ew-ness.

Hahaha! I was aching all over after the movie.

Anyway, yaye that the prelims are over, but it doesnt mean fun yet \:

Ahhhh, can't wait for Os t be over, yeah. Yeah, everybody says that on their blogs.

But still, i want good results too! Gahahah.

I had a long break this week, i only went t school tday and i have t go for normal lessons tmr, ah, usual long day. And we're getting back some of our results tmr, im excited, and im nervous, i dont know why la, maybe because i did study this round, and i hope for better grades? Duh.

And anyway, during this long break, i did study, but i think i wasted some time too, actually not some. I watched G-force, 9, the ugly truth, whiteout, aliens in the attic and today, phobia 2. Ohgosh, yes yes, i can't believe it too. Hahah. Okay, but at least i still studied! :D

Hahaha! I think i'm gonna get a good rest tonight, im gonna have a good sleep and from tomorrow onwards, i cannot slack at all. And it's gonna be doubles! Argh.

Im gonna have t give dance a miss tomorrow, besides, i wanna get a new leotard first.

Gonna have some "fnn elective" gathering at Ms Juny's tmr, yaye!

And Sunny's on saturday, w her nieces of course! :D

Hahah! Hari Raya seems so much fun.

I'm feeling hungry now \:

Seeyou! :D

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Every-little-girl's-dream, not :D

11:43 AM

Then you walk off,

and i burst out.

I'm left with nothing t say, speechless and choiceless.

Yeah, i can understand the things that you say t me, but do you make an effort t understand the way i hope (not WANT) things t be. I thought you supported me, like my sister and even quite unbelievably, father.

I made serious thinkings about my decision.

But in the end, you just clearly do not support me, after all that i've assured you with.

And i know that i can't do anything else.

Maybe when i'm 21, i'll go out there and prove u wrong, i hate t say this, but i will.

Maybe life is this unfair, maybe i really would have no future.

I've never been so negative about my future before, in this case, my passion.

9:44 PM

9:44 PM

Forgive me.

11:26 AM

Never crossed my mind...

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And then i asked myself again, why?

When i was young, it was easy and i need not make choices at all. My mom'd drive me for ballet classes and leave me there while she goes shopping nearby. But as time flies and i get older, i realise that i need to make a stand and a decision, like what "flower"'s said, i shouldn't be so shallow in my thinkings. Like what Mdm F's said, when you were young, the examiners give you extra marks just because you look adorable and you're able to remember ur steps, no technique, not much performance, but as you mature, they look at performance (like grade 8, with all the solo dances), and they look at technique (in which, i've worked and am still working on since the day i cried over my stupid results). And then i thought of it all once again, saying was so easy.

I want to be a dancer! Hahaha. I want to be a ballerina! Wow, so easy. As though i'm gonna become one the next day. I did a fair comparison and much reflection just now. I talked t "flower" and she told me loads that struck me. So shallow, yeah. I totally agree, i wasn't offended. She was on a pre professional path, considered an amateur. Then i asked myself, what am i? A noobie? So what if i can score the highest marks in class and be the only distinction for Grade 8 award in my class (Not boasting here, don't be naive in your thoughts), so what if i get t perform and dance in so many dances. What i am now, is not close t what i want t become.

So well, like "flower" also said, i should focus on my Os now, t help me too, and i should start to train intensively after my O levels. I can't wait u know! Hahaha. Like dancing everyday, it's so much fun! So much like, my life! :D

Anyway, i had a great talk with "flower" just now. She's an inspiration, though she's blunt. But i think she's been nice and i liked her. She thinks i'm funny. Hahaha.

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And so, i've just wasted tday, kinda wasted it actually.

Because why? I NEVER STUDYYYYYY AT ALL!!! Ahhhhhh.

Oh shiz, i feel really bad about it. \:

But gah, i had fun playing w little kids from the day care at the playground just now!

OMG! They're such adorable stuffs. I love little children! :D

Hahaha.

Great.ahma could handle them so well, hahah. She looked funny though, and cute. Cause it's like when you play with kids, you tend t have t be like one, because u need t catch their attention and entertain them, duh.

So LPM was like a kid tday! So funny!

Hope we could go there again. Those kids were sooooo duper cute!

I can't forget that "childhood romance scene" la. Hahaha. Nana and sebastian, omg, so adorable.

And that "childhood bestfriends scene", the qiqi and nana. Aww, helping hand, like what LPM's said, so superrrr cute! :D

Okay, i went home earlier tday.

And i talked t flower, and i went t sleep.

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I wanna go swimming!

I wanna go zoo! (LPM thinks zoo is smelly! Rahhh!)

I wanna dance tmr!

I'm thinking if i should go t ACTFA tmr, hmm \:

I wanna eat pastamania!

I NEED TO GO AND STUDY NOW.

Lotsa love,

xxx

8:45 PM