I said i didn't wanted to do Boston Ballet's SDP auditions.
But well, i went for it.
Because of neoyun!
I didnt wanted to do the class initially, prolly just watch it.
But then, i dont know and cant remember what's the reason why i decided to do it in the end.
It was a great class though, who cares who gets in or not.
The whole point's about the experience.
It was a tough class.
I had to do things that i havent even learnt in my grade.
Well, i was tagged 45 today, also the last on the list.
But there werent 45 people auditioning.
I met Elizabeth, haha, it's been so long.
And then, i saw one of my baos, Michelle, two of the Nut soldiers, Clara and Adelene.
Then there was Howie and Sencai, shocking? Hahah. Not really.
Howie seemed shocked when he saw me.
It's been quite some time. Well, it was great to see and dance with them again.
I was kinda scared when he made us do a penchee.
Mdm fung never made us do penchees in class, i'm not so sure why.
Mine wasn't 180 degrees la (i think), but well, i felt, square and nice.
HAHAHA. Whatever.
Then another new one was jete en tournant. Never done it in class before either.
I remember i had to do that during BAC's audition last year.
And i skipped that exercise.
But i didn't skip it this time round, well, i tried.
I think my allegro was worse than before, maybe because i didn't have breakfast.
I felt a little too weak to jump.
Pointe was quite a killer.
IT WAS IN THE CENTREEEE!! Omg.
I thought i was gonna faint.
I didn't wear toepad, so my toes went mad.
Pirouettes en pointe, my gosh, my first time.
Thank God it was quite successful.
And another one, maybe a little more than
12 pique turns leading into chaines, that was, scary.
I'm not strong en pointe, i know that very well.
But....................
I did full pique turns!!!! Omg, lovely.
Hahahaha, so happy.
But we all think it's because sdt has really good floor, it's cool.
I was so scared to go on my toes and turn at first and we had to do it in twos!!!
But i didnt dare to attempt the doubles.
Lastly, we had to do sautes en pointe.
Scary much? Omg.
But it was okay.
It was an awesome class.
Really. I dont care if i get in.
I've gotten everything he's said in my head about tendus and frappes.
They make so much sense and yes, it was so good!
I feel perked up and ready to dance more.
Goodbye chicken pox-es! :D
Oh and two girls came up to me after the audition class and said something to me that gave me a mega ego boost. OMG! I'm serious, i dont know if they were trying to be funny but they didn't sounded like they were.
HAHAHA, i felt my heart skip a beat when they said that.
Gosh, im not writing it here, come ask me on msn or sms me if you DESPERATELY wanna know.
If i write it here, it's gonna sound quite, thick-skinned. HAHAHA.
I feel so happy.
Even though my body's still feeling weak and my toes hurt very much.
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BAC's auds next sunday.
HAHAHA, i decided to go for intermediate.
Advance's gonna be a challenge for me.
And i need to eat breakfast this time! :D
It's not gonna be an easy audition, i'm gonna try my best.
I hope i get in for this one. (:
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Kay, enough of auditions.
Prix finals today! 31st! Whoohoooooo!
I'm so happy that Yu Hiu Tung got into the finals! Yay!
I cant wait to watch them live tonight!
Hahaha, fancy how people chase late into the night to watch soccer matches or smth.
I'm gonna chase my night watching ballet! Whooooooo!
HAHAHAHAH.
Awesomesxzsxzsxzszxzsxz!
Bye everyone.
LOVEYOU BALLET!
Why did you have to do this to me?
6:02 PM
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Eh, no la. I don't want to go JC liao.
I was initially planning to go apply at a particular JC on monday.
But no, cannot la, i decided not too.
Let's not do it slip-shot.
At least i've time to spend with my ai(s).
Even though i need to work my ass off. (Damn this!)
I think i'll still have enough time.
At least i can like, dance?
And ya! Spend time with my loved ones.
okay.
Bye
10:52 PM
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Woah, guess what.
I just received my audition info for NAFA.
Damnnnnnn.
Both my auditions on the 23rd feb.
Lasalle's in the morning from 8.30am-1.30pm.
NAFA's after that, from 2.45pm-5.15pm.
And i need to come up with a solo for NAFA's audition.
And i need to do two essays for my Lasalle's audition.
And the audition's in less than a month.
Omgosh.
Tired die me sia.
Why can't i have my Nafa's audition in March instead.
Arghhhhhhh.
Nevermind la, all at once also good.
Ahyo. Seriously gonna feel tired after that.
HAHA. But im excited for it.
AND YES. I have decided, um...
Maybe i wont say it here.
HAHAHAHHAHAHA.
Toodles monkeys and zebras.
9:24 AM
Credits: Prix De Lausanne 2010 on FB.
I think 109's ala seconde is ah-mazing!
If only mine were as high and straight as hers. I wish.
But i still like 111 (Yu Hiu Tung)!
She's beautiful, she's got a pretty alignment, her turnouts are beautiful, her steps are clean.
But she seemed a little nervous when i saw her vid blog.
I hope she goes far, she's good.
This year's prix seems really exciting because there're so many dancers, the number of male dancers even seemed to have increased compared to last year. Major wow-ness!
And there seemed to be alot of competition. Omigosh!
I wish i could be there to watch the finals.
They're so beautiful.
Can't wait for the finals to be posted up on Vid blog.
Jiayou Yu Hiu Tung!!! :D
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I realised that love blossoms in such a funny way.
Oh wells...
I don't know why i'm up so early.
I had a bad dream last night, i can't remember what it was though.
So maybe that's the reason why.
I regret.
I regretted not participating in the Jae.
Gosh, i hope i went to a JC, at least i don't have to work.
Sigh. I really hoped.
Too bad, too late isn't it.
Gonna give Boston Ballet SDP audition this sunday a miss.
Heard that alot of Sota girls were going too.
Good and bad.
Good cause i can see most of them, like my dear baos, nut soldiers, and others! :D
Bad cause they're gonna be so good, im gonna feel so demoralised.
But well, i'm not going.
I hope Neoyun'd still go, she said she'll only go if i go.
But i haven't been dancing because of poxy that's why.
I need so much training.
And i think im gonna give BAC auds a miss too.
Sigh, im sad that i'm giving that a miss.
But i really wanna do it! Ugh.
Let me think, maybe i'll change my mind.
I'm only left till sunday to submit.
Grrr.
Def won't give Lasalle and Nafa's auds a miss.
And yeah, talking about this, i've yet to do my essays.
I'd better get started!
Shit, i say this everyday.
Okay, i'm gonna do it today.
I feel weak.
I need to dance. I need to dance. I need to dance.
40kg, here i come! :D
9:05 AM
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Sweet yet bitter...
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Hi donkeys.
It's been ages, yet again.
Grr, so lazy to update.
But i can't bear to abandon this lovely (NOT) blog of mine.
HAHAHA.
Well, i still miss all my previous posts, when i started blogging.
Gosh, i always delete my posts on impulse.
Hate that, hope i won't do that again.
Hmm, poxy's my best friend for the whole of this week.
Even though i dont even look like i've got chicken pox at all.
Really, they're not serious like my dad's.
I've got very very very little!
Thank God.
Been sleeping and playing and sleeping.
I keep telling myself that i need to do my audition essays, but im so lazy.
Gosh, i'd better get started on them.
OKAY! TIME FOR MEDICINE! :D
Oh and ya!
Congrats to those who got into their choice of schools and course.
And all the best to those who are appealing, yeahs.
My horoscope today said;
You will enjoy learning how to go slow right now, because there is so much to see.
And yes, i am restless today. Tired, i don't feel like moving.
Something not so nice happened in the morning, thats why im feeling like that.
Guess it's meant to be, but worth it.
My colour is shadow black, idc cause i'm not going out, if not i'll wear entirely black, like i always do. LOL.
My number is 36, in which i don't know why.
And lastly, the time's 8pm. I'll wait and hope. (:
Winny, take it slow.
If you love something or someone, let it go.
If it comes back to you, it's yours.
If it doesn't, it never was.
How true this sounds, though cliche yes.
My heart feels squashed, but im staying strong (via Joelynn Lim)
And yes, i really do feel this way too.
I don't want to fake a smile.
Love, isn't everything.
Yours truly.
It's time to dance again.
I missed you.
12:23 PM
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Geez! :D
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I hate the fact that i can't go for ballet classes and chingay rehs because...
I'VE GOT CHICKEN POX!!!
Screw it.
It's so itchy. Ugh!
:(
When im okay, i wanna go dim sum-ing with joelynn.
When im okay, i wanna go catch a movie.
When im okay, i wanna go shopping for CNY.
When im okay, i wanna go swimming and get a nice tan.
When im okay, i wanna travel a little bit, so that i can take that time to forget about what's happened in Singapore. I know im avoiding it, it's like when i come back, i'll still have to face all these shit, but i really wanna go somewhere, breathe some nice and fresh air, have some fun.
Don't you want it too?
I want to forget everything, i want to wash it off my mind entirely.
But somehow, it's either the whole piece or part of it will still be intact in my mind.
I don't wanna think about it, i dont wanna fake anything.
I'm trying. I can't find myself.
Sigh, this is life? I wish i had a better one then.
I wish... i wish i wasn't so stupid and naive.
I wanna start over again, but now, it's not only about me...
I need to dance alot when im okay, really.
12:43 PM
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
I was using facebook and munching on butterscotch that Joelynn bought.
Then suddenly, i cant feel anymore butterscotch on the plate!
AHHHHH damnnnn, i finished maybe, one-quarter of the whole thing.
Nooooo! Butterscotch is so yums, i need more. D:
Then i slept for the entire time because my head was throbbing.
I wanted to go chi's class but i can't make it in this state.
Sigh, so many thing's been happening.
Now i'm awake but everything's still on my mind.
It's not like i can run away or hide from reality.
It's like a hit-and-run.
You were like a hi-and-bye.
And i really hate you for that somehow.
I wanna go dress shopping, and maybe heels too.
And i wanna spend time with my mother, and father and sister. (:
Well, for now, i'm gonna do some online shopping till mom comes home very soon.
And then i'll go and eat and i'll go and sleep again.
I've got blood on my finger. Ew.
So, bye.
8:58 PM
To be honest, i hate that you can move on so quickly.I'm sad, and i really want to cry.
:(
11:39 AM
Without make up.
But with love. (:
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Maybe, it's really time to move on.I still wished you haven't said that so we might still be close now.
I don't want to lose you.
Everytime, i cross my fingers, hoping you won't ever forget me.
And yup. Life's been good.
Chingay reh yesterday was waayyyyyyyy killer than the rehearsal on Sunday.
We had to walk alot.
My right ankle and right knee hurts, my back aches, my neck aches.
To sum it all up, i feel lethargic entirely.
And guess what, we've still got practice later in the evening.
Gosh, hanging on man.
I think the performance days are gonna be crazy.
4 consecutive days non-stop.
Really sad to those who've got school the next day, really.
Well, just to cheer myself up.
Here's how i did it yesterday.
Had a really good lunch with the girls yesterday.
We got entertained by nose-digger and singapore idol (NOT).
Actually both are the same person.
We had Just Acia, free flow of ice-cream and drinks.
And, fun and laughter!
Had fun yes, alot.
Then we took a bus, and alighted somewhere near panpac.
Panpac reminded me of D. Heh, cause she liked to talk about it all the time.
Went to Candy Empire, shared 200g with Sinyee and Fiona.
Yumsxzsxzs! :D
Chingay!
We had entertainment again! HAHAHA.
Oh my goodness, seriously funny.
The gay! -.-
Had alot of rehs. Tired.
Had nice talks with SinYee during breaks.
Yeah, blah and blah.
We made a din on the bus and MRT on the way back.
Ballerinas unglam much?
Hahaha! Very funny.
I wish today'd be a good day.
I'm still tired, but well, i'm already up.
I wanna go juicy with Joelynn Lim! :D:D:D
And go sun-tanning.
Burn all my stupid fats.
tday's my day, tmr's booked and dance at night, wed's my day, thur's dance, fri's dance, sat's chingay, sun's dance.
I planned to go to ACTFA today to complete my hours.
But maybe not.
maybe next week. i've got alot of hours to complete.
Like 15hours. Or maybe more, gay right?
Then maybe Kyo Lao Shi misses me so he'll cont giving me free coaching for salsa.
HAHAHA. i hope they don't make me dance when i get back to complete my hours.
I don't want test. And im gonna say i have no money for classes.
AND IM SERIOUS ABOUT THAT.
GOSH IM BROKE! SERIOUSLY BROKE!
But i still wanna go out in heels with Neo Yun.
Glam much. HAHAHA :D
I'm trying to distract myself. If you haven't noticed.
Long posts are coming back, yay me!
I miss you, don't you?
11:04 AM
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Maybe, time has already told the story.
Yeah? :D
God loves you.
So do i.
♥
12:14 PM
I'm so tempted by Posh's Trip Earle C, seriously! Ughhhh.
Okay, maybe when i lose 5kg successfully, i will have that as a reward.
I survived on two bowls of soup and two pieces of nuggets for the whole of yesterday.
Ahahah! So not healthy, but well, at least not fattening.
Ehhhhh, why do they give dancers MacDonalds for dinner.
Worse, MacSpicy? Huh? Ahyo.
It's so wrong, seriously. They should pack some HEALTHY meals.
HAHAHA.
I'm becoming a diet freak. OMGOOD! :B
I am overweight, for a dancer! Gah, screw this shit.
Anyway, i'm excited for today.
Gonna give pei's class a miss. Wanted to submit my audi form today, but nah.
Maybe tues or smth.
Gonna meet NEOYUN to apply for Lasalle and Nafa!
Actually, thanks to Serene Seah, i applied for Lasalle already! Yay!
So today, we'll go to NAFA.
And we'll have lunch.
And we'll talk alot!
HAHAHA. About dance, and work!
I've got ballet tonight too.
What a tiring day! If i go for ADV1 in the morning, it'll be TRIPLE tired-ness.
Gahhhhhh.
Anyway!!!
Yesterday's chingay media preview was kinda happening! And fun!
We were almost late, actually, we were late. Hah.
But there were people later then us.
I kept telling myself to return the umbrella to Ms Cam, but in the end, i forgot!
So luckily, i saw Ms Low and she helped me.
AHAHAH. Omg, why is it always like that, you keep trying to remind yourself not to forget something, but eventually forgets it. Tsk, horrible.
Media preview was, wow, bright.
All the camera flashes, like last year.
It was just so not my day.
I've got 4 new blisters on my feet, and i was so kei kiang that i shut my mouth and continued dancing until i cannot tahan anymore because the pain was really, bad.
I took out my shoes and guess what!!!!????
My blisters broke, which meant my skin came off. Ahhhh.
Pain like what only. So i walked bare footed to get plasters from my bag (Thank God i have them!) I was unglam. Always am.
And trust me, the floor sucks. It's the f1 track la, so you can roughly imagine.
AND............
During the 2nd media preview, my head gear flew off when i did my last Feng Huo Lun.
Oh gay, it literally FLEW away. And my head was damn pain.
Now there's a small part on my head that looks like i've got loss of hair.
I'm serious, my mom said it. \:
And worse still, the guy, this guy, i shan't say much la, but he's just so freaking rude!!!
He kicked my head gear off and still can say this: "Wah, Ta de tou fei diao" (Her head fly off)
Soooo stupiddddddddd.
I don't think they'd put that on news or tv or the papers. \:
Okay whatever, then we went to the flyer toilet and cleaned ourselves.
Then we went home!
Chingay this year feels much more awesome because of the friends.
Last year was a hell lot of bitchings, but this year, it feels diff.
But i really like, us. Hahaha.
Tomorrow, we're gonna have a healthy meal at DB exchange for 2 hours before going to f1 pit for rehearsal. Pigs much? HAHA.
No ballet on sunday, good? Not really i guess.
I feel like i haven't danced ballet in ages. :(
But i'm having class later! So, yay!
I'm thinking to go and submit my aud forms and maybe, meet R and TIARA tomorrow before meeting the girls, but my sister's gonna make a big fuss.
Hmmmm, let me think about it.
SOOOOOO... Today and tomorrow's gonna be cool.
And monday, i'm gonna rot again because everyone else is going to school.
Ugh. Maybe i'll bake! :D
And i'll do my audition written assignments for both schools.
Haha, funny question.
Are waffles really better than pancakes?
I really don't know how i should write a "compo" with this.
Is there even a diff? Maybe i should ask Ms Juny.
HAHAHAHA! Joking.
Argh, all the best me. HAHA.
Okay la, happy much?
But then, where'd all the people who add on to my happiness disappeared to?
Huh? Really forget about me already.
Ahyo! Sighhhhhhhh. I feel so sad when i think about it.
To be honest, these people make me feel so much (less than / 3), but what can i do, right?
But i'll be there when you need me, really.
♥
So if you wanna cont ignoring me, or be mean to me, or forget abt me, let it be.
But i'll still care, about you, very much.
11:03 AM
Korea love is so much love.
Awww, these two pictures feels very warm.
Esp with them around.
These proves that we're always around each other, anywhere la.
Meet up soon! Love!
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Hahaha, I'm so sleepyyy!
But i'm happy. I have to be right.
I'm always happy isn't it people! :D
HAHAHA.
Just sometimes, you don't know only. \:
Well, Chingay media Conf tonight.
Whoooooo. Dunnoe if i should feel happy or not.
My costume is kinda smelly.
I mean, my shirt stinks more.
How to wash sia. Seriously.
But i still air it la obviously.
I feel happy. I should be though. Who cares if i fake anw right?
So, happy is still the best.
I have no more work next week.
Yipee doodles.
And i want to go food-ing but the devil is,... fats!
Ahhhhhhh! FATS!!!
Okay whatever, my blog is so not interesting anymore.
Booooooo! I know i know! :(
I haven't blogged properly in ages! Oh my goodness.
But i don't regret it la. Haha.
I'm not sure if this is a proper post.
Maybe it is.
I'm kinda scared to blog because everything i blog about is wrong to you.
So well, maybe i'll blog less often. \:
It's better for me, and some others.
Sigh.. I'm kinda a failure.
Okay, whatever, who cares.
I'm gonna move on now!
Stay like a happy fool! :D even though i feel crushed inside.
HAHAHA. Yay to me!
Gonna photocopy my certificates now.
So many you know.
Somemore i must photocopy two sets.
I hope i bring enough ka-chings.
I feel good when i see all my dance certs.
Hahaha, yipeeeeee!
I'm a happy fool and i'll remember that.
I LOVE MYSELF AND YOU!
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
miss me for now.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxo.
10:55 AM
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
So what if i feel helpless, who cares?
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I haven't posted a proper post for a long time.
Alot of thing's been happening.
Bad, good. A mixture.
Well, life goes on, yeah?
I talked to sister Eliza.
I hope she'll help me.
I feel the connection, the good results, my life.
I am scared, i really am.
But i will always remember that i've had the best sweet sixteen with my cell.
They'll always be the best people in my heart.
They've changed my life, every single one of them.
I love my cell, my ex-cell...
I feel so sad when i talk about this.
If only... but it's too late.
God will make a way.
It's been a long way.
I've learnt alot.
I'm not sure how i should phrase it.
I just feel tormented.
I am extremely sad.
Hey, i miss you.
I wish you haven't told me about it.
We seem to be drifting now.
Will you really forget about me in time?
I'll do a proper post when i feel better.
I hate the way i am now, the feeling sucks.
Maybe, time will tell the story.
Is there anyway i could perish but not make it a sin?
Just like i said last time, though not in the same context, the feeling is similar.
When you look at me, i look away.
When you look away, i regret.
You figure it.
Goodbye, readers.
9:35 PM
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Thank God for my set of results, really.
Indeed, i've tasted my own piece of success from my very own sheer hard work.
Now it's time to do what i really need to.
Go winny! (:
I'm not participating in JAE, so friends who are, all the best.
I wanted to, but i decided not to be so unfair to others.
I'm not going back to sec 4, even though i really wanted to.
I have decided to move on.
I am gonna try alot of things this year that's gonna make alot of difference in me.
So wish me luck.
I will miss DA alot.
But i will wait for the chalet.
I want to dance so badly.
I want to meet sissies, and talk and cry and dance together.
There's just so many things that i can't say.
Why is it that life's so unfair?
10:17 PM
Saturday, January 9, 2010
I had the most stupid dream in my entire life.
Zzz
11:25 AM
