Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Today was a really tough day for me, i had to keep telling myself to be strong, but in the end, i still broke down.
Physically, mentally, emotionally. Kinda unfair to me.
I'm trying very hard.
So tired.
I'll blog again another day.
During this one month, i've met quite alot of people and i enjoy it.
I need to start dancing again because i haven't been fair.
"What if your boyfriend is this tall?"
It makes me feel like crying.
I don't feel like talking. I just wanna go sleep.
Bye.
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I wanna take a picture with him, the real him, not in his costume so much. \:
He's cute, i know right.
Stupid puss, you're just so adorable!
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And thanks to these two darlings for making ytd extra memorable.
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Today is the 26th of April 2010.
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I'm so nervous, i'm so scared, i'm so stressed.
I keep thinking about it, i dream of it twice already since day 1.
But i've done my best, yes, nature shall take its course.
I'm wanting it so badly.
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I woke up at 10-ish, then i went back to sleep at 11-ish.
You know why?
Because it rained.
Aww, just love it.
Back to work tomorrow from my three days off.
Dread it.
April's coming to an end, i'm keeping the rest of my fingers crossed for my scholarship results.
Love everyone.
And sorry, you.
I'm a phailure.
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I can feel my heart beating.
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Date: 24th April 2010
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Which one do you think is more worth it?
Ah, gingerbread man so cute! Me like.
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All the best to those who're going for their graded examinations in the coming weeks.
My chingay family; Alicia, Adeva, Sinyee, Yexin, SuIan, Fiona, Besley, Tiffany.
& everyone else!
Do well for ur exam yes!? (:
Tmr's Hong Kong Academy for Performing Arts Dance Prog auditions.
3 people asked me to go. And i've been thinking, but i decided, no.
Those who are going, jiayou kay! :D
I don't feel that i'm good enough yet, and to be very honest, i'm quite tired of auditions. But i'm very much aware that to become a performer, auditions are part and parcel. I've been thinking alot lately. let me think more.
Oh, yes. And i enjoyed performing with my most wonderful TTM on 180410.
Thank you girls, even though i only had less than 2 months to learn the entire dance, i truly enjoyed, stressed yes, but in the end, we're still the ones who benefited because we love to dance. (:
Hope i see her tomorrow when i go to Universal Studios, again!
I so rich, yeah right. -_-
Fingers still crossed.
Hope for me everyone.
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Fingers crossed.
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11:48 PM
Today was horrid for me. I cried after what seemed like a thousand years and it was even more horrible because my eyes totally turned red after that, with my nose blocked.
And yeah, why did i cry?
Simply, because i'm... taken for granted, should i say it this way?
Well, nobody's perfect.
And i'm out in the society now, it's not secondary school where you have ur lovely friends everytime right beside you when you breakdown or something.
But still, thank God i've met people and like the saying, what goes around comes around.
When you're nice to someone, the person will return it by being nice back to you too.
Especially smiles.
It was surprising how people actually bothered to ask if i'm okay even though i didn't know them and they didn't know me.
I'm so glad i've got people around me at least, who are still making me feel better, thank you.
And of course, King Julien's hug (aww, even though his fur was already going down my throat, nah i'm joking :B) was the best even though he bullied me by wrestling me and pushing me into the "ss", he's so strong! I don't need Puss anymore, he can go away and flirt with whoever, hahaha, go flirt with Rebecca! :D
Things today were really nasty but i had no choice, i had to bear with it and carry on.
And i really hated that...
Tomorrow's the performance, i hope i'll do well and make them proud.
Jiayou all of us! Well, maybe more for me because the other 3 are good already (:
TTM ForTheWay. LOVE US.
8:20 PM
Awww. Puss Darling.
Marrying you was the best thing ever.
Hope you're missing me, cause i'm off today, which is very unlikely, so...
I'm still gonna divorce you! Grr.
Bad cat, i'll remove your boots! >:(
Puss, you so cute. But, woof!
1:14 PM
I'm sorry to everyone who's your friends and to you.
Nothing was ever fair.
No one really understood how i felt because i never ever posted things like that, like you did on facebook or anywhere, only now (and even so, i'm not telling the entire thing).
No one will bother because everyone thinks that you're right, just by reading ur conversations.
Yeah, i'm the one at fault, i'm the wrong one. I know. I accept.
Trust me, it's everyone that's there for you, not me.
I can't believe you twisted the story to everyone.
I no need anyone to sympathize me.
So what if i'm sad, i still have to walk on.
Maybe you should listen to your bestfriend.
In case you forgot, he said this - don't give a fuck about shit, very not worth it.
He told me to get a life and told you not to care about me.
Seriously, he's right, you shouldn't give a fuck about me.
I am done. I will stop giving chances. I will not bother.
Me giving chances = me making you confused and stressed.
I never had anyone who told me not to bother about you or not to give a fuck about you because i was never able to express the way i feel to people.
It was bottled up, everything was and always will be.
Sorry that i've caused you this mess and shit.
And sorry that i need to include such dirty words in my post.
Just heed your friend's advices. I don't wanna be a scapegoat anymore.
I don't like this. I'm sure you don't too.
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2:17 PM
The other time, i went to RGPS to teach dance after working at USS for a week already.
The kids came to me and said, "Teacher! You go suntan is it? You tan already leh!"
Hahaha, adorable much.
I almost fainted when i saw my work schedule for next week. -_-
I'm seriously gonna become chao ta.
M called me this morning and well...
Hope i hear of the good news soon, make it be good please!
Keeping my fingers crossed ttm. I want it very much, very badly.
Commitments yes, but it doesn't matter. I just hope i get it!
And talking abt ttm, i really need to start remembering my steps.
Next Sunday's TTM's performance, my gosh, my leg better be okay and i better know my dance steps. All the best me!
Okay, nothing else for now.
Bye.
2:38 PM
Well, today was supposed be a fine day.
But, no it wasn't.
1. Tonight, is Scarlet Nights at xen and i really really really wanted to go. I miss my dance mates, my salsa partners, lao shi's spins and hand tosses, my lovely friends. And i definitely missed dancing, or should i say, salsa-ing, with everyone there. I really miss salsa. But i'm moving on (well, don't guess, you'll never get it! :D), maybe i'll still go back once in awhile. \:
2. Tonight, is also Phillip's birthday chalet with the crew and i wanted to go to that too because it sounded like so much fun. And Jasmine Loh's going and my "mummy" too, like, how can i not go? :( Oh well, nevermind. I almost cabbed down there just now just to make sure my mummy is feeling well and alright, but i didn't in the end because she seemed fine, at least better when i heard her before she was on the way.
3. Tonight, there was ballet class, and i could only watch the class. I was so tempted to do the pointe exercises. And i had to just mark through dance. Ugh, i just miss pointe! And it sucks because i haven't been en pointe for so long. What's even worse is that i'm on flats most of the time, at least 9 hours a day or more. This is no good, the next time i go en pointe, i'm gonna suffer and have a hard time with my feet. Stupid. Grr.
Okay, something stupid and annoying bit me on the back of my knee. It's freaking painful, i can't sleep properly, walk properly, sit properly, and i can't even dance, damn it. I need to dance! I feel so sad, i don't like that thing :(
Most people got a shock when they saw how huge it was, gross enough.
Well, it's all thanks to Madagascar, yes? ahahah, no la, just kidding.
I love Madagascar because i get to see puss in the boots, shrek (I just dreamt of him during my nap. lol!), princess fiona and the dance by the penguins, Alex, Gloria and king Julien. King Julien is so cool, i wanna dance like him! :D
I don't know why, but i'm smelling popcorn from USS carts. HAHAHA.
MC for four days, miss me everyone, because i can't go out or work or anything!
I love you, ballet! :B
I'll keep my fingers crossed for the good news and results.
Please let me hear it soon.
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